true?? false??

This Morning

I Feel
Kinda
~Hate Myself~

I set the wrong alarm on my phone x.x
Promise my honey to wake up on 7.30 am but last night, I've my phone alarm set 7.30 pm
Once I wake up,

take a glance
on my clock. it shows it's already 8.35 am, I was like " DaMM"
why??
Phone alarm not waking me up on time.
and my feeling tell me i'm going to be in trouble. I quickly pick up my phone trying to apologize to Dear <3~

But I was surprise that how come the clock on my phone is already showing 10.35 am!!
and there are 3 messages~

in the 3 messages, the one that caught my attention the most is the one u said u were being R@#$
is like giving me a heart attack after reading it.
On that moment, my mind gone "poff" empty
asking myself "what have I done?"

I quickly reply u couple of message and follow by giving u a few call... but not answer
 pressure keep on building inside my heart...
and finally I let it out... tears flow down my face
I was insane worry bout you...

took like couple minutes, *beep~Beep* incoming message

who else I will care if I do not Care Bout You~
You are My Missing pieces in order to have me completing a puzzle,
without you, my life would have a hole~ not perfect~
all I wanted is the truth about that things you mention~
even if is a joke~ is okey~ I will forgive you but just next time don't use that as joke, u make me worried badly bout you.
If is not a joke~ is still okey~ who cares that, I still love you forever ever, marry you, and happy to call you 

as.......

 <3 my wife <3

^.^

* this song keep remind me of our sweet memories *

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why dies your heart return my call?
If you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But i know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do u dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And i pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna tun away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don;t wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you, then why dose my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that i can stay in your arms?

~Missing you = Pain~

After 5 days challenge,

Wiffy finally back from Singapore~

During that 5 days, it is the most pain feeling I ever feel in My life ='(

Miss you so much~

Feeling useless without you beside me~

Until ur back, I can't stay with you~

sigh~

Why want treat me like this God~ TT it is really painful~

When Wiffy <3 at Singapore,

every night b4 i went to bed, the same thing I will do over and over again~

Take my phone, see ur picture and then said good night to you~ and even kiss my phone~ hehe <<< silly la me =P

Hug phone to sleep, X____x

When dear in Singapore, Hard to sms You ----> expensive for you to reply from SG~~~ Adui~~~

call u also they makan ur credit~~~ waaaaaAAAaa!!!!

Wednesday watch two movies with Wiffy~

First time in my life owhh~~~ hehe~ damm happy~~ =P

NEVER FORGET THE TASTY BURGER WE EAT YESTERDAY!!!!!!!

SO YUMMY!!!

EHUMMMM EHUMMMM!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait for the next time~~~

My mom is not dislike Wiffy, 

WIffy must get it right~ she worry bout me thats all~ ( dun simply think)

=)

Back to home again~ HUbby Really Misses You honey~ T.T

I wanted to stay beside you, I try my best~ T.T

I really do try my best ~ ='(

I love you forever~ for you i can do everything~ ='(

Dear i will do everything to hlp cure ur leg~ no worries~ 

because I'm Ur Hubby Forever ^.^ 

hehe~

Hubby Love you Forever~ 

Trust + believing is Important~

TOday is the second day that i'm back in here~

I really hope that everyday going to be happy~

But comes out it's actually not~

Do you still have trust in our relationship?????

YOu always ask me not to think nonsense but today is you that did it~~~

I trust and believe in our love~

BUT why you go search Google 

" why no boyfriend don't love me anymore :( "

why do you want to search it????

why are you not believing in me?????

SAD~

no matter how many times i said i love you, if the trust within you and our relationship is gone,

you will only always feel that i'm not love you~

DO you know it hurt my feeling when i saw you search this on google???

What's wrong???

T=T

it's not joking~~~

I take this relationship seriously~

when i ask you the same question, u will said that my fikiran not matured???

now i try really hard to built/ make our relationship last forever~~~~

Ask yourself, if i don't love you,

will i go walk around to look for your favorite ice cream in the hot weather?

If i don't love you, would I still help you apply medicine everyday??

If I don't love you,  will I still go buy your favorite 

'Dou Hua' for you even i injured my leg??

If i don't love you, will i still control you eating spicy food???

If i Don't love you, will i still care about ur healthy? 

T^T

When i saw what you search on google, it only make me felt so disappointed/ unhappy,,,,

why i keep showing my dear love, you still can't realize it?? = '(

I though this week will be a happy week, but just come to the second day, things change again~~~~

I'm tired on myself~

I don;t know what to do~

why???

= ' ( 

 game is not a living things, you are a living things,

why will you compared you with a  non-living things???

should i be a non- living thing only that you can feel my love???

From the 1st day till today, I'm still always appreciated, love, care, about you~

Do you know that everytime dear ask me this question, 

it only make me think that i'm not good enough,

maybe i should not deserved you~ T.T

why love is so difficult now????

can;t just be back the 1st daY?

135 days~ = '(

tears in my broken heart~

sad~

wanted to cry, but don't have the strength to do it~

heart really pain~ 

Every single I love you i write to you is not weather it's reality or not reality, 

it's the strength that found inside a man heart  to write it~

I end this post with three word~

'I Love You'

~H3~aRt~Beat~

Dear~
Sorry Last few week keep bringing sadness to you~
And I keep simply think stuff~
sigh~

Dear you are the strongest~ I'm still not as strong as you~
I will changed~ I will not do the same mistake over and over again~
I just want to stay happy forever with you~
Let us both write our own love story~

Been two weeks I with you this time~
When it comes to today~
It is really hard for me to take a step back to klang~
feeling of don;t want to leave you~ T.T

WIffy~ maybe i not yet thanks you on teaching me AP and QM
I will said it here ooo~ THANKS YOU WIFFY~
Hopefully i can pass the AP~ I wanted to study with you~
I really scare i did not do well in AP~
that time i was not feeling well and have to use my brain to think~
waaaa~~ i very scare~ dear~~~~~~ sob sob
already pass le, dun want think it anymore...
MUST PASS!!!!
^^

Dear~ promise you not going to make you sad anymore~
I will keep this promise forever~
I want you keep smiling de~ look cute maawhh~ hahahahah
Sorry DEar~ about msn sometimes~
when my connection get slow, it really sux~
late received message from you and late reply, sigh~~~~~~~~
SORRY~~

Dear~
I'm still Loving you forever ♥ ❤~ Sayang you♥ ❤~ chong you♥ ❤ ~ muahahah xD dear~
Miss you really much here~ aikzz~ =')

Last 4 Ever ❤

I really Don’t know why my internet connection sucks 

In Angkasa = (

Everyone enjoying good connection

Except

Me

= ‘( sigh

Starting was quite good de

But

Now turn so bad =(

Aww

Today 

I cook egg plus noodles for my dear

Learn it from youtube

Hehe

By a famous chef ramsley’s

Hahaha xD

Even is the first time of me cooking something different

But still boleh tahan lawr

Hahaha xD

I so scare the taste turn out bad X_______X

This week I did a stupid choice of reloading

TOUCH n’ GO card x(

Make me left rm 100 for the week

WAaaaa~

RM 100 is really not enough in K.L

Today have a really unhappy and bad surprise for me~~

WAP!!!! RESULT #______________@

Die Jor~

11 marks nia~~~~~~~

T.T

Seriously is really hard for me to take this result

Chest pain xia~

Lucky have you in my life~

I know I always said the same thing over and over again~

I really must thanks my loving wiffy dear for everything~

I’m down you always support me giving me motivation~

Making my chest pain gone~

I really sorry dear~

Unabled to help you in WAP~

Really sad for the whole day~ = ‘ (

Even

 I have acted happy but deeply inside my heart is really painful~

Gratz dear in having three subject highest mark among us~

I’m really happy for you~

I will never give up on writing, algebra, qm….

Not going to retake all these subject~

Because~

…..

….

I have you beside me…

No matter how hard the road will be in front of me to go,

As long as dear hold my hand gives support,

I will continue walking till the end of day~

96 days ler~

In the 1st day till 96th,

Maybe we have quarrel before…

But 

My 

love for dear is still same as the first day and keep getting stronger~

This few days I notice something wor~

My dear more Cute than before xia~

Play plants and zombie!! ^_________^

More geng than me hor~

I did not even win the whole game before~ blek =P

Don’t angry hor~ @ )

Dear~ Loving U Forever

Perfect Wedding 

Just like dear said muakxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ 

As Days Go on~ Love gone Stronger And Stronger than Before~

I really Dislike hate Fridays now a days..

Mom ask me to go back but 

I have to leave my Dear behind

if I stay back,

I leave family behind~

what should I do~ = ' (

either choice will hurt either one of them~

erghhhhh~

what, how, where, who I'm always asking myself...

I'm sorry to both my dear and mom.....

Is hard decision for me to make....

I don't want to my dear alone~~

I'm very pity and is hard for me to take that leaving my dear alone~

sigh~~~

i'm not here, my dear will eat late, eat chocolate...

hurt my feeling the most is...

dear go da pau urself that day...

I feel like i'm so .......

can't take care of dear = ' (

Dear~~~~~

this week i did a wrong choice to reload touch and go....

making me running out of money this week.. = (

I'm really scare everytime my dear angry or saD on me...

everytime if dear sad~

i will think a lot..

ever seeing dear blog last time posting a blog telling lost confident,

i'm so scare of losing you..

that is why i always telling dear 

don't leave me

dear is not what playgirl.....

for me dear is a mature lady....

today making dear angry, feel so sorry....

maybe i'm been doing cleaning and then angry..

I never meant to make you angry dear~~~ it's totally my fault today, really really sorry....

some thing keep inside my mind....

why I don't dare to tell them bout adding a person on apartment = ' (

I really want to hug you every night and sleep beside you~~~~~

really want to cry.... every word I write is with my feeling..... sigh~~~

I do not want to be a quite person anymore..

this will just make lost confident in myself on answering people question....

But

I will Never Ever Lost Confident In Our Love...

This Love Change Me A Lot..

Because Of This Relationship,

It Make Me Realize That The Power Of Love Is So Strong...

sometimes I'm being too protective...

I don't know why~

every time is boys get near to dear~

talk to dear

 my heart started to feel jealous............ 

Hand pain today after cleaning room~

thank you dear for massaging my arms for me~~

~I really appreciated it~

The One Thing I Choose And Never Regret 

IS

Having U Be My One And Only Dear 

Lao Po = *

give dear listen song ^.^