true?? false??

This Morning

I Feel
Kinda
~Hate Myself~

I set the wrong alarm on my phone x.x
Promise my honey to wake up on 7.30 am but last night, I've my phone alarm set 7.30 pm
Once I wake up,

take a glance
on my clock. it shows it's already 8.35 am, I was like " DaMM"
why??
Phone alarm not waking me up on time.
and my feeling tell me i'm going to be in trouble. I quickly pick up my phone trying to apologize to Dear <3~

But I was surprise that how come the clock on my phone is already showing 10.35 am!!
and there are 3 messages~

in the 3 messages, the one that caught my attention the most is the one u said u were being R@#$
is like giving me a heart attack after reading it.
On that moment, my mind gone "poff" empty
asking myself "what have I done?"

I quickly reply u couple of message and follow by giving u a few call... but not answer
 pressure keep on building inside my heart...
and finally I let it out... tears flow down my face
I was insane worry bout you...

took like couple minutes, *beep~Beep* incoming message

who else I will care if I do not Care Bout You~
You are My Missing pieces in order to have me completing a puzzle,
without you, my life would have a hole~ not perfect~
all I wanted is the truth about that things you mention~
even if is a joke~ is okey~ I will forgive you but just next time don't use that as joke, u make me worried badly bout you.
If is not a joke~ is still okey~ who cares that, I still love you forever ever, marry you, and happy to call you 

as.......

 <3 my wife <3

^.^

* this song keep remind me of our sweet memories *

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why dies your heart return my call?
If you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But i know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do u dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And i pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna tun away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don;t wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If i'm not made for you, then why dose my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that i can stay in your arms?

~Missing you = Pain~

After 5 days challenge,

Wiffy finally back from Singapore~

During that 5 days, it is the most pain feeling I ever feel in My life ='(

Miss you so much~

Feeling useless without you beside me~

Until ur back, I can't stay with you~

sigh~

Why want treat me like this God~ TT it is really painful~

When Wiffy <3 at Singapore,

every night b4 i went to bed, the same thing I will do over and over again~

Take my phone, see ur picture and then said good night to you~ and even kiss my phone~ hehe <<< silly la me =P

Hug phone to sleep, X____x

When dear in Singapore, Hard to sms You ----> expensive for you to reply from SG~~~ Adui~~~

call u also they makan ur credit~~~ waaaaaAAAaa!!!!

Wednesday watch two movies with Wiffy~

First time in my life owhh~~~ hehe~ damm happy~~ =P

NEVER FORGET THE TASTY BURGER WE EAT YESTERDAY!!!!!!!

SO YUMMY!!!

EHUMMMM EHUMMMM!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait for the next time~~~

My mom is not dislike Wiffy, 

WIffy must get it right~ she worry bout me thats all~ ( dun simply think)

=)

Back to home again~ HUbby Really Misses You honey~ T.T

I wanted to stay beside you, I try my best~ T.T

I really do try my best ~ ='(

I love you forever~ for you i can do everything~ ='(

Dear i will do everything to hlp cure ur leg~ no worries~ 

because I'm Ur Hubby Forever ^.^ 

hehe~

Hubby Love you Forever~ 

Trust + believing is Important~

TOday is the second day that i'm back in here~

I really hope that everyday going to be happy~

But comes out it's actually not~

Do you still have trust in our relationship?????

YOu always ask me not to think nonsense but today is you that did it~~~

I trust and believe in our love~

BUT why you go search Google 

" why no boyfriend don't love me anymore :( "

why do you want to search it????

why are you not believing in me?????

SAD~

no matter how many times i said i love you, if the trust within you and our relationship is gone,

you will only always feel that i'm not love you~

DO you know it hurt my feeling when i saw you search this on google???

What's wrong???

T=T

it's not joking~~~

I take this relationship seriously~

when i ask you the same question, u will said that my fikiran not matured???

now i try really hard to built/ make our relationship last forever~~~~

Ask yourself, if i don't love you,

will i go walk around to look for your favorite ice cream in the hot weather?

If i don't love you, would I still help you apply medicine everyday??

If I don't love you,  will I still go buy your favorite 

'Dou Hua' for you even i injured my leg??

If i don't love you, will i still control you eating spicy food???

If i Don't love you, will i still care about ur healthy? 

T^T

When i saw what you search on google, it only make me felt so disappointed/ unhappy,,,,

why i keep showing my dear love, you still can't realize it?? = '(

I though this week will be a happy week, but just come to the second day, things change again~~~~

I'm tired on myself~

I don;t know what to do~

why???

= ' ( 

 game is not a living things, you are a living things,

why will you compared you with a  non-living things???

should i be a non- living thing only that you can feel my love???

From the 1st day till today, I'm still always appreciated, love, care, about you~

Do you know that everytime dear ask me this question, 

it only make me think that i'm not good enough,

maybe i should not deserved you~ T.T

why love is so difficult now????

can;t just be back the 1st daY?

135 days~ = '(

tears in my broken heart~

sad~

wanted to cry, but don't have the strength to do it~

heart really pain~ 

Every single I love you i write to you is not weather it's reality or not reality, 

it's the strength that found inside a man heart  to write it~

I end this post with three word~

'I Love You'

~H3~aRt~Beat~

Dear~
Sorry Last few week keep bringing sadness to you~
And I keep simply think stuff~
sigh~

Dear you are the strongest~ I'm still not as strong as you~
I will changed~ I will not do the same mistake over and over again~
I just want to stay happy forever with you~
Let us both write our own love story~

Been two weeks I with you this time~
When it comes to today~
It is really hard for me to take a step back to klang~
feeling of don;t want to leave you~ T.T

WIffy~ maybe i not yet thanks you on teaching me AP and QM
I will said it here ooo~ THANKS YOU WIFFY~
Hopefully i can pass the AP~ I wanted to study with you~
I really scare i did not do well in AP~
that time i was not feeling well and have to use my brain to think~
waaaa~~ i very scare~ dear~~~~~~ sob sob
already pass le, dun want think it anymore...
MUST PASS!!!!
^^

Dear~ promise you not going to make you sad anymore~
I will keep this promise forever~
I want you keep smiling de~ look cute maawhh~ hahahahah
Sorry DEar~ about msn sometimes~
when my connection get slow, it really sux~
late received message from you and late reply, sigh~~~~~~~~
SORRY~~

Dear~
I'm still Loving you forever ♥ ❤~ Sayang you♥ ❤~ chong you♥ ❤ ~ muahahah xD dear~
Miss you really much here~ aikzz~ =')

Last 4 Ever ❤

I really Don’t know why my internet connection sucks 

In Angkasa = (

Everyone enjoying good connection

Except

Me

= ‘( sigh

Starting was quite good de

But

Now turn so bad =(

Aww

Today 

I cook egg plus noodles for my dear

Learn it from youtube

Hehe

By a famous chef ramsley’s

Hahaha xD

Even is the first time of me cooking something different

But still boleh tahan lawr

Hahaha xD

I so scare the taste turn out bad X_______X

This week I did a stupid choice of reloading

TOUCH n’ GO card x(

Make me left rm 100 for the week

WAaaaa~

RM 100 is really not enough in K.L

Today have a really unhappy and bad surprise for me~~

WAP!!!! RESULT #______________@

Die Jor~

11 marks nia~~~~~~~

T.T

Seriously is really hard for me to take this result

Chest pain xia~

Lucky have you in my life~

I know I always said the same thing over and over again~

I really must thanks my loving wiffy dear for everything~

I’m down you always support me giving me motivation~

Making my chest pain gone~

I really sorry dear~

Unabled to help you in WAP~

Really sad for the whole day~ = ‘ (

Even

 I have acted happy but deeply inside my heart is really painful~

Gratz dear in having three subject highest mark among us~

I’m really happy for you~

I will never give up on writing, algebra, qm….

Not going to retake all these subject~

Because~

…..

….

I have you beside me…

No matter how hard the road will be in front of me to go,

As long as dear hold my hand gives support,

I will continue walking till the end of day~

96 days ler~

In the 1st day till 96th,

Maybe we have quarrel before…

But 

My 

love for dear is still same as the first day and keep getting stronger~

This few days I notice something wor~

My dear more Cute than before xia~

Play plants and zombie!! ^_________^

More geng than me hor~

I did not even win the whole game before~ blek =P

Don’t angry hor~ @ )

Dear~ Loving U Forever

Perfect Wedding 

Just like dear said muakxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ ❥♥ ❤ 

As Days Go on~ Love gone Stronger And Stronger than Before~

I really Dislike hate Fridays now a days..

Mom ask me to go back but 

I have to leave my Dear behind

if I stay back,

I leave family behind~

what should I do~ = ' (

either choice will hurt either one of them~

erghhhhh~

what, how, where, who I'm always asking myself...

I'm sorry to both my dear and mom.....

Is hard decision for me to make....

I don't want to my dear alone~~

I'm very pity and is hard for me to take that leaving my dear alone~

sigh~~~

i'm not here, my dear will eat late, eat chocolate...

hurt my feeling the most is...

dear go da pau urself that day...

I feel like i'm so .......

can't take care of dear = ' (

Dear~~~~~

this week i did a wrong choice to reload touch and go....

making me running out of money this week.. = (

I'm really scare everytime my dear angry or saD on me...

everytime if dear sad~

i will think a lot..

ever seeing dear blog last time posting a blog telling lost confident,

i'm so scare of losing you..

that is why i always telling dear 

don't leave me

dear is not what playgirl.....

for me dear is a mature lady....

today making dear angry, feel so sorry....

maybe i'm been doing cleaning and then angry..

I never meant to make you angry dear~~~ it's totally my fault today, really really sorry....

some thing keep inside my mind....

why I don't dare to tell them bout adding a person on apartment = ' (

I really want to hug you every night and sleep beside you~~~~~

really want to cry.... every word I write is with my feeling..... sigh~~~

I do not want to be a quite person anymore..

this will just make lost confident in myself on answering people question....

But

I will Never Ever Lost Confident In Our Love...

This Love Change Me A Lot..

Because Of This Relationship,

It Make Me Realize That The Power Of Love Is So Strong...

sometimes I'm being too protective...

I don't know why~

every time is boys get near to dear~

talk to dear

 my heart started to feel jealous............ 

Hand pain today after cleaning room~

thank you dear for massaging my arms for me~~

~I really appreciated it~

The One Thing I Choose And Never Regret 

IS

Having U Be My One And Only Dear 

Lao Po = *

give dear listen song ^.^

Oh Lord ='(

Lord~

Promise me that love can be simple and last forever..

Even if Lord~ 

disagree it, 

I will not care but just be myself to 

love the one i choose to love 

share my life with

~~ ❤Viola Yong Suh Yee ❤~~

~Nothing gonna change my love for you~

maybe sometimes word you said  might kinda hurt my feeling

but

I'm a grown up now

will not just give up everything because of little thing..

THAT WILL BE MIND OF A LITTLE KID!!!!!!!

IF I GIVE UP!!!!!

 ❤爱是很简单的东西 ❤

Ever since Darling said to me, 

if I beh tahan then..... ,

I know what you mean,,

but let me tell my dear.......

I reaaaalllllyyyy F@#kxxG hate that word !!!!!!

I din't mean to use "F" word 

but just really sad you tell me that!!!!

why would you think like that~~

who cares if your self fish, lady temper~~~

I never really care about it...

Is just you are the one that matters on ur attitude.

I really Dislike Arguing...

~~~this will just end up no winner but both lost their most important things in their heart~~~~ 

Sometimes I do not know why dear acting no mood to me?

As I said~ LAO PO ❤

Ur the one that told me not to care about what other people said !!!

But turn out now LAO PO caring what others said that

'' On The Fourth Month And The Fourth Year is The Most Hard To Survive A Relationship''

I mean this is a F@#$inG Bu*LLsh*T  !!!!

is it because of 4 = 死 ( die ) in chinese?????

that's why people said like that???

I DON"T REALLY CARE!!!!!!!!! 

if that happen to them is their problem..

THis is Our RelationShip~

Just Let Us Prove TO TheM THEy ARE F#$%inG Wrong ABOUT IT !!!!!

is this the reason my dear so worried on our relationship?????

DEAR!!!!

I'm GOnnA F@c% any of those F#4%inG Idiots Or Morons Gay or Bi%cHeS who

EVER TRY TO LAY ANOTHER OPINION OR COMMENT ON OUR

RELATIONSHIP!!!!

I really Respect our RelationShip dear~~

I don't Know How Many Times I Have to Said to Dear~

No Matter What Happen~

NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU!!!!

IT TAKE GOOD STRENGTH FOR US TO BE TOGETHER!!!!

85 DAYS!!!!

Awwww!!!!

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

DON't Simply think le ok MAh????

Even Is hard to Listen A 

I LOVE YOU 

From Dear Mouth~

But it's ok ^^

just really wanted to ask my dear  this question

" ❤ DEAR ❤"

 ❤"would you share ur rest of your life with me" ❤

Aduiiii~~~~

I'm acting weird nowadays..

I'm sorry Sweetheart..

This few days just love to bully you..

I just don't want to leave you that's all..

today is friday and I have to go back to Klang..

Ever since the day we be together,

I started to dislike Friday.....

Friday is the day that we have to separate for two days......

I really want to eat my dear cook before going back to Klang~

I'm running out of time~~

Maybe this week we can't spend much time together......

too much assignment and the submission day is too close..

and then mid term~ sigh~~~

Sweetheart~

remember that day i told you about some one said that if i treat you too good and then later you don't want me....

Actually I am very angry after hearing it..

I was telling myself~ " how can you said like that, do you even know how human feel!!!"

Aikz~ Dear don't think too much~ muackxx

I know your the best for me... 

I'm sick = dear take care of me

I'm hungry = dear cook for me

My mouth dry = dear take water for me

Sweetheart you mean too much for me, 

I told myself every night before i went to bed~

I will love you forever, take care of you, and want to show you I'm ready to take the responsible..

I will throw all my bad things away..

I just want dear know~ no matter what happen, i will still take care and love you~

But sometimes I really Don't know why,

you always have things to said but when i ask you

you always don't want to share with me

I don't care what dear going to share,

I am ready to listen....

I always tell you already..

if want happy then happy together.

sad then sad together..

now it's my turn to ask my sweetheart back..

did you even listen thing i said to you......... = (

FINALLY SWEETHEART BACK!!!!!

SUper HaPPy!!!!!!!

SwEEthEart BacK JoR~ xD =D

2 WeeKs FiNally PAss JUsT LiKe ThaT.

MuSt Appreciated Time Now!!!!

HaAPPyyYYY To SEEE MY sWEEThEART!!!!!!!!

WAAaaaRRRwwwww!!!!

But your get thin le!!!

but now your back., i'm gonna give you eat lot lot!!!

PrEpAred hor SweeTheart!!! =*

LOVE YOU FROG PRINCESS!! Muackxxx =*

~WhitOut you~

Back To Angkasa le~

feeling not the same whit out my dear~

just 3 more days ^.^

DEAR BACK !!! 

her her her xD

*Waiting waiting*

= P

3 more days

Time pass fast owh~

Just 3 more days,

My dear will be back.

From the day u go back to sarawak,

I really really miss you....

More worst is when the time I'm at Ipoh,

Even how hard for me to give dear a call

I still make it. 

Call you inside toilet. 

Don't want dear worry~

Last time me and my brother use to worry about how many ang pau we get..

hehe ..

But this CNY I'm not worry about ang pau anymore,

I worry my dear more. 

Ang pau is no more important to me..

Dear is the one that important to me.. 

That day dear told me bout ur causin friend died in H1N1.

I'm sorry to ur causin friend and God Bless Him.

and then dear told me that you dun want to leave me

said want marry me..

That time my worry of dear become more serious..

I keep on ask dear to check with the doctor, 

but i know dear din't go?? hehe 

Dear~

nothing will happen to you de~

let bad thing happen to me can le but never happen to my Dear = *

Dear you touch me = '(

Add today, is been like 4 days i did not listen my dear voice.

I really really sad.......................................................

=  ' (

Everytime when I think of my Dear,

my heart become very very weak.. 

Just now when i go on facebook and 

some one post this song....

I cry after listen to it...


_______Dear I wanna hold your hand______

_______    I LOvE YoU _______

我华语不是那没好,

但是成经达应过你我会用华语来写 blog 我就一定会做到~

哈哈 dear~

不要看小我哦~

只从 dear 回去了,  我每天都在想你,  每次想你时都会对自己说, 两个星期是很快就会过去的..

但是,

其时呢, 是很慢很慢的...

时间就是喜欢弄人,  当要它过快点它就很慢,  当要它过慢点它就会过的比平常快~~

真是的~~~

每天我都会想明天我该做些什么事情来给时间快一点过掉...

想着想着就会想起我和dear在一起时的快乐事情..  = )

我真的很高兴有dear在我身边.~

每当我最需要人支持我的时候,

你都会在我身边的鼓励和支持着我~

就向那时我要面对我最不喜欢的 Algebra,

我真的有想过要把这一课也给放气了就是因为有你一直的对我说我一定行... 

所以到了最后我还是努力的评下去.

每一次dear带着笑容的脸我都会很高兴.

我对我自己说过我一定要对你很好, 很很的珍惜你, 要你每次就一直笑着的~

但是有几次我却做不到~我很失败~ 对不起dear有时弄到你不高兴~ = '(

I'm really Sorry~

Dear 你在沙捞越那边的天气好热呢,

每次问dear那边天气如何呢? 答案就是很热.. 

Dear~ 你啊~你啊, 一定要多喝水哦, 我好但心你的健康~

但是到了晚上, Dear 就会伤风因为冷气开太冷了~~

最怕就是但心你不盖被... 你在 Angkasa 睡觉都不盖被的, 帮你盖了后,睡不到一真子你就会把被

给踢掉... Adui~~~ x.x

第一次写过一个 blog 花了大概一个小时半,

但是我觉得是值得的 = ) 

Dear~如果我有写什么错字请你不要笑哦,

这是我跟我的 google translate 一起合作才能写出来的.. 哈哈..

有着三个字我一定不会写错, 每次和你讲着三个字是, 我并不是随便随便的要说就说,

我是很认真的~~

三个字......

Dear~

♥我爱你♥

~2 weeks~ waiting Dear =* I LOVE YOU

I know that 2 weeks is really fast~

This is a really hard mission for me 

have to wait my Dear for 2 weeks~ I Miss my Dear very very much = ' (

Dear~ I wait for you always~  waiting you to be back~

Dear~

You are the one that let me know what is the feeling of miss~

❤I LOVE YOU FOREVER❤

On the 27th January

I am really happy able to send my Dear to LCCT 

But am really sad to watch my Dear go~ = ' (

~Dear this Is the Sarawak ABC I told you that day~

I Don't know if Sarawak ABC is really look like this. =P

I've been listening to this song over and over again.

From the 1st time I heard this song, I will automatic think of my Dear. ='(


~~~~~~~I MISS YOU MISS YOU MISS YOU DEAR~~~~~~

Dear~ You AlwaYs ToUch Me~

Argghh~

Actually trying to write this post in Chinese but.. 

call me half banana ba x) 

hahahahahaha~~

So Happy belanja my dear eat sushi~ 

LoLx

eat until so full xia 

x.x

<< Crab Sushi... Yummy xP

 <<  haha This is vegetables I eat de, it comes with fried chicken and      Udon, but already eat, left vegetables... ^.^

<< dear eat de.. hehe =P

dear eat de, I don't know whats that = P >>>>> delicious

<<<  Beef~dear eat de.. have to cook with hot soup . x D

T.T

Friday again!!!

have to go back to Klang~~~~

= (

Hate this every time, feel so lost whit out my dear with me..

While waiting for the lift,

suddenly heard door open and footsteps..

Feeling like some one running..

Heard the tiny little bell thing you wear~~

arhhh~ feeling told me is my dear...

when I look up~~~

Is my Sayang Dear holding a roti boy plastic beg....

Dear~~~~~~~ you touch me so much~~ T.T wuwuwuwuwu

So Bored~

while waiting at train station, miss a train to pel. klang..

thinking bout dear at station Kuala Lumpur = (

waiting waiting~~ sigh~~ 

<<<<   see me curi- curi take 2 ah bui picture 

hehe = P

Train Arrive le, a train that straight away to Klang~~

Lucky got dear sms me at train. He He.. 

sms dear and take some photo inside train... 

hahaha...

My Dear always the best owrh~

hehe~ dear~~

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU~~

MuaKsss =*

Dear~ I Love You~

 Ur a Star inside my heart~ 

You Are the one that always brighten up My day~

 Every Morning even a good morning message I received from you make me feel so happy able to put a smile on my face.. And most importantly I never sweet mouth to my dear but just telling the truth.

. I've imomortalize dear inside my heart~

 Every time i saw you said you cry~

 I've a feeling of painfulness and bitterness inside my heart~ all i wanted is to always see you put on the sweetest smile on your face always.. 

ever since you come to my life you have change my way of thinking~ 

The only unbreakerable promise i wanted to made to you is~

 Dear viola yong, i will forever love you, appreaciated you, take care of you,

 and let no one hurt you..

 if you are angry i would glad to be the only person for you to scold..

 =)

 i do everything for the one and only dear~

 I LOVE YOU~

 i've missing you every second of my life ever since i'm back to klang~

 no matter how, tomorrow will be the day i'm seeing you~

 i must see you, T.T

 my angel.

 my love,

 my princess,

 my lao po T.T

~I Love You~ My Dear~ =' )